Monday, Aug. 26, 2002 - 11:18 p.m.
This is just so weird.
I think about him 24/7. I know I said this about Airell, but I only thought about him once every hour and I only thought of him just cause he was always with me.
But him...even though he's not with me, I still think about him. I mean I got really hyped during break, lunch, and afterschool because it just seemed closer to the weekend when I am seeing him again (it's his parents' wedding anniversary this Saturday!! :D).
I just woke up from a 7-hour nap and I was totally freaking myself out. As soon as I woke up, I was like, "Mamat, where is he?!?!?" then realised he wasn't with me and probably won't ever be.
I can't say this is "love", because I believe "love" is more than this, if there is a "more than this". If it is love, this sucks cause I don't want to fall in love now when I can't do anything about it.
I miss him just too much. I wonder how I'll cope when he leaves. Just hope he comes back after this term. *starts praying*
My brother and my cousin are both online and are both Away. I'm scared because what if they're at House 5? *starts pouting*
P.S. Photos are better now.
