Sunday, Sept. 01, 2002 - 5:06 am
Just came back from the anniversary. I think it was a bit awful for everybody because before we left for the party, my dad kept on throwing up (he’s got high blood - ?) and he was feeling nauseous and faint and somehow both of them took it out on me. Hey, all I asked from my mum was some jewellery and both my parents start talking about how my dad’s not well. Then I took it out on my sister.
The party was boring. I had to wear a stupid pink baju kebaya and it was like half-tight and half-big for me and then spent the rest 4 hours doing nothing. And then the kids went out to play with the water guns and bouncers again and I couldn’t because I have stupid coughs and Lilia keeps on saying I have a cold, but I do NOT, my temperature’s normal, so I didn’t get to be wet and have fun on the very last day I’m seeing *him*…and I didn’t really see him today, not as much.
So on the ride home, I cried because I was cold, hungry, and regretful because I mean, it was the last day and I didn’t get to have fun and I can be sentimental like that. Lasts matter to me.
In the car I had to kinda face reality. I was like, "Oh God, get real, face it, he doesn't like you, that was 2 years ago and you said so yourself you couldn't bring the past back no matter how much you tried...face it, he doesn't like you so stop being a hopeless girl who claims she's in love when she's really not, it's just really pathetic"
I feel a bit sorry for Mamat’s mother though (I call her Butiri) because of having to spend her wedding anniversary by herself because her husband had another wife in town. Real sad, but she managed to enjoy it, I guess.
Well I might go to House 5 on Sunday night (which is tonight, really), but then again it’s a school night and I’ve missed 2 days of school on the first week. And I don’t know if I can see them at the airport because they’re leaving on stupid Monday (the day that everyone dreads) and Monday is a stupid school day. But I think the school accepts an excuse like that. “Mr Alexander, Nadzirah had to drop her cousins off at the airport, because they’re leaving for England. We apologise her lateness. Much thanks, Suhaimi + Aisah”
Hm. They miiiiiiight (cross everything I can cross – hey, I’m a human pretzel!) be coming back around Christmas holidays. Because I remember having my stupid apple bob haircut in November and a couple of weeks after that, I went to House 5 and Mamat’s sister (Alai Midah, but I call her Alai) was like, “Who’s this?” ‘cause I added glasses to my disguise.
The dawn is breaking, it's early morn'
The taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
I'm leaving on a jetplane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go
On a lighter note, THANKS to all you guys who wished me well. I can't say I'm better, but thaaaaaaaaanks sooooooooo much.
