Thursday, Sept. 26, 2002 - 9:58 pm
Bad Things:
-My grandfather's gone back to CCU (Critical Care Unit)
-He's leaving for Singapore at midnight
-I have a choice: to go or not to go
-My choice is not to go, because my mum just freaking told me off because I can't just go home anytime I want just because of a stupid flute lesson which I can't replace since Ms Sumich's timetable is completely full every week and my exams are coming up after 3 more lessons
-On the other hand, I am desperate to go since, well, it's my GRANDPA gawdammit!
-My other aunt dreamt of his death
-My grandma cried in the hospital
-So I know this is serious
-MY MOBILE IS LOST AND *HE* IS SERIOUSLY THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN CHEER ME UP NOW (APART FROM MY GRANDPA) AND I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING READ HIS MESSAGE EVEN IF HE DOES FUCKING REPLY!!!!!!!!!
Good Things:
-Everyone I know is still well and alive. Not necessarily well, but alive. Even if barely.
I SERIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW WHY GOD GIVES US LIFE IF ALL WE GET IS DEATH!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO BE MAD AT GOD BUT I CAN'T HELP IT, WHY DOES HE WANT TO BRING MY GRANDPA BACK, WHY CAN'T HE MAKE HIM STAY WITH US?????
