Wednesday, Apr. 30, 2003 - 10:06 pm
eeee my bro jus came in2 ma room n i got nervous cuz he saw me typin on diaryland n i wuz jus lyke oh wheres dat hook ring thing? n he started talking about how org bukit nda bagi him stuff from uk.. if theyre happy they completely 4get abt u.. but if they want sumthin they go 2 him 4 help.. they say they dnt haf money or sumfin BULLSHYT lah wat about the dior handbags n prada fone tags and gucci shoes?????? BULLSHYT.
but ma bro sed atleast kami sudah rasa how it feels lyke 2 be in debt.. he sez hes 100% sure hes COMPLETELY sure that if knk2 bukit were in our shoes dorang nangis tu.. cuz they spend like 100 in one day and we can hold it up to like a week.. even more!!! ive had my 100 since like my bday..!!
then he talked about his bank money n i asked if babu n papas accounts really ARE empty.. n he said yea i think so.. but papa sez to keep it quiet.. n i got shocked.. n theres only 20,000 in his bank account rite now.. then we'll start using mine the fiqahs then we'll be bankrupt lah..
n i started talkin about y we cnt sell this house? n my bro asked me "ok do U wnt 2 sell dis house?" n im lyke no... n he sed "do U wnt 2 leave dis house?" n im lyke no... by dat tyme i wuz gna nangis u noeeeee... ='( and hes lyke "do u think papa wnted 2 leave? if i didnt stay here wile u guyz stayed at Bukit, this wouldve been the governments place now! but i said no.. they give me a deadline first THEN i'll pack..
then papa wrote a letter 2 them n dorang mana balas ever since.. every morning papa would sit outside early morning thinking n thinking.. he already gave up lah. he gave up on the hopes of this house he was gonna leave it already. he gave up basically didnt wna cause any trouble.. he rote a letter, he left the house.. but i stayed." n i wuz gna cry soooooo much.
n abg sed dat his next house is gna be all one floor, but everyone gets their own "house" its jus gna be all connected by pathways or bridges or sumfin.. bcuz he sed he made a mistake in this house.. he forgot we would grow up.. he made it as if abg would stay 12 forever, as if i would stay 6 forever. he got too overexcited wen he built this house.. he wanted everything to be built in one day he was soooo excited he forgot we would grow up. =')
nice story to cry to eh? i love my life. i love my daddy for knowing whats really important in life. i love my brother for sticking to what he loves, for being super strong, for letting us all not give up.. letting us know we CAN do stuff, we just cant give up EVER.. i love this house. i love it. i love it. its like another daughter for my dad. he knew he loved it but he didnt wanna cause any more trouble. he loved it too much and my brother loved it too mcuh to leave it, he didnt wanna leave his sister. didnt wanna leave this house which cost my dad 20million.
i love this house. and i love my daddy. and i love God. thankyou for the blessings.
